So, I realize this has been a very long time coming…my apologies. I have hit a wall in my life…feeling discouraged and tired…not feeling inspired…and it has been tempting to give up on finishing this journey. But, if I gave up now…we would end at the point of despair…and we wouldn’t see what happens in the end with our dear friend, Job….and that prospect is just plain gloomy! So…I decided to pull up my socks and jump back in the story with Job and his “Friends”.
When last we chatted, Job’s friend, Bildad, had ripped Job a new one…basically equating Job with a maggot. I have found myself this time around, not focusing merely on one chapter but on the following 6 chapters which all contain Job’s final defense and speech. As far as I can tell, this is the last time we really hear from Job.
After reading this section of Job, I now have a vision of the Book of Job as a court case. There is a silent but present Judge—God. There are Accusers and Prosecutors—sadly, Job’s friends who ought to have been his Defenders. And we have our weak and feeble Defendant, Job…and he has realized it is up to him to defend himself since his friends, his wife and even God seem determined to leave him to his own defense.
I have always been a sucker for a good court case drama…I love the preparation of arguments…I love watching the trial unfold…and I am always enthralled as I watch the closing arguments from both the Prosecutor and the Defense. The closing arguments are the last time the lawyers arguing the case have a chance to convince the jury or the judge of their case. It is always full of dramatics and oratorical flourish and brilliance…closing arguments, at least in the movies, are full of passion and zeal.
I realized that what follows in chapters 26-31, this is Job’s closing argument. I got such a sense that he is physically, emotionally and mentally at the end…and he is giving his final defense…and then he is done talking. He has nothing to lose….and nothing left…he leaves it all on the playing field.
If this was a movie court room drama…I could picture the gallery of people observing the trial sitting on the edge of their seats. What they don’t know is that Job’s defense is really their defense too…for the suffering of innocents is something with which we must all contend at some point in our lives.
The judge is clouded and obscure…not an identified played in this drama yet.
The Prosecutors…the feckless bullies sit on their side of the courtroom taking notes…tsking in judgment as Job orates his rage and his defense…occasionally they derisively snort in response to a comment that Job makes.
And there is our protagonist, our Job barely able to stand…broken physically and emotionally, mustering up his last reserves of strength to declare his innocence and fight for his defense. Here is Job’s closing argument:
So basically Job’s final speech, contained in chapters 26-31, has 5 distinct sections.
Section #1: Creation: The Cacophony of God’s Whisper
Job responds to his friends by basically saying, “Thanks for your incredible insight into God’s character—NOT! You think you can speak for God? God is the Creator…His power is immense…He makes the thunder shake the ground….He controls the seas…and this rumbling and roiling creation is just a whisper of His power. What would we do if He ever really unleashed His power?”
That thought…that all the crazy power that is evident in creation is just a mere whisper of God’s power. Man…that is a scary thought! I thought of the Tsunamis and hurricanes…of the Earth quake in Haiti…the devastation of creation is just a finger flick of God. Wow…if that is the cacophony of His whispers, what must his speaking voice sound like?
Again, I get the image of Aslan from The Chronicles in my mind. We think we can control this God of ours…and His power is far beyond what we can even imagine. It does make me think twice about speaking for God. I wonder if it made Job’s friends stop and question whether they wanted to continue to boldly speak for God? I doubt it…but it sure has made me stop and question whether I want to do so in the future. It does make me realize, I want to make sure that I am speaking only when the Holy Spirit compels me to do so!
Section #2: God Has Ruined Me!
In all good court room dramas, the defense attorney always presents the last minute real culprit in dramatic fashion. Like in a great Scooby Doo episode…the “ghost” is always Mr. Jones, the grumpy carnival manager! Job basically pulls the same dramatic flourish in this section. And the culprit under the mask is revealed to be….duh duh duhn!!!!! GOD?!
In verse one of chapter 27, Job points the finger directly at God. He says that it is God Almighty who has both ruined his life and then denied him justice! I can imagine the crowd in the court room pulling back in shock and letting out a communal gasp…of outrage…of surprise…of reluctant accepting pain.
Job declares right until the bitter end, he will not lie to absolve God….he will only speak the truth until the end…and Job believes that God is ultimately responsible for his situation. Job also does not feel it is just or deserved. Job asks for a hearing with his true Accuser, whom he believes to be God. He begs for someone to show him his error…he invites scrutiny and investigation…and it appears the only One worthy of that scrutiny and observation has chosen not to present His findings up until this point….enter foreshadowing scary music here!
So, Job, declares…he will cling to the integrity of his character…he resolutely declares himself to be NOT GUILTY of any charges that would bring such horrific consequences.
Section #3: What is Wisdom and Where can Wisdom be found?
This section of Job’s closing argument, I have to admit, confused me. I had a hard time understanding why, in the middle of his final statements, he wants to take time to have a philosophical discussion about the nature and residence of wisdom. As I thought about it, I wondered if he is trying to maintain that he still has his faith…he still realizes that the only path to wisdom and salvation lies with God…that the only way to navigate thru the philosophical waters of the deep with God is to realize that at the end of all things…true knowledge and wisdom are only found when one surrenders to the inevitability of the Fear of God. Once we surrender to the reality of the vastness and immensity of God’s power and character, we see ourselves in our truest light…in comparison with God…and the proper response is reverent fear and awe.
We don’t like to talk about fear of God in our comfy church culture. We like our Santa God images. We give mere lip service to the Lion if Judah images. We rationalize and explain away what “Fear of God” means. Dude! The Guy can flick a finger and a hurricane is wrought…to pretend that we shouldn’t have a healthy respect and fear for THAT Guy is just plain foolishness!
When I looked at it in that context, I realized that Job was probably trying to refute the so called “Wise” testimony of his friends. Their arguments show no wisdom because they do not take into account that true wisdom finds its birth place in an acknowledgment of the Fear of God. Job is showing that his friends’ counsel was deeply out of place and negligent because they waved around a loaded gun when they tried to defend God…they showed how foolish they were with their total lack of a fear of God.
Job concludes that Wisdom is found only with God…that as smart and advanced as humanity becomes, we will only be able to mine the fragments of wisdom that God has placed in the world. We cannot find the source of true Wisdom outside of the fear of God.
Section #4: Job’s Lament
In this section…found in chapters 29 and 30, Job makes his plea to the jury of the Gallery and to the judge with a tale of what he has lost. And it is a good reminder at this point in the story….let us remember what has Job lost:
Job lost all of his children…ALL his beloved children were horrifically wiped out in one traumatic accident. And don’t turn your heart and mind off…think about that! I have observed the face of a man who lost almost all of his family…a wife and two daughters in one horrific accident. That Job has it in him to even fight, is quite a testament to the inner fortitude of Job. I cannot imagine losing one child…never mind all of your kids at once.
But…it didn’t end there…let me remind you and re-engage you with his horror…Job also had his entire empire wiped out…he is destitute and homeless.
And….he was then struck with a painful illness that marred his physical appearance and made him someone who people winced and gagged to look at.
And then his wife cursed him and left him to weather his trauma alone.
Job realizes at this point in his final arguments…he needs to remind the Judge and the Jury of the great heights from which he has fallen.
His words break my heart…there is such wistfulness in his words…”Oh how I long for the days when God took care of me…when God was my friend….” So very sad. Not only has the man lost everything…he now feels he has lost his friend, God. I am not sure there is a pain that is worse than that feeling.
It reminds me of a story I heard about a former evangelist who walked away from his faith. He was interviewed later in life, actually only weeks before he eventually passed away and was asked if he had regrets about his decision. The writer describes that this very sad and wistful expression came over his face and he said, “I sure do miss Jesus.” And I remember to this day, years after reading of this account, I remember that deep pain that filled my heart at his words.
It also reminds me of Mother Theresa…who I have mentioned already in my blog. I am reading a book that contains her letters to her spiritual mentors…and they reveal a woman who once she got her Calcutta ministry up and running, never again felt the presence or love of God…she felt cut off from Him…and yet continued to love and serve Him because she felt like this was her call from Him…to continue even though she would never feel Him again. And the book is so painful to me…that I have had to read it in small sections because it makes me weep.
I know that God is good…and I know that He is love. We have to always rest on that foundation when exploring these topics or our world just tumbles away from us. But I also know that He remains silent and obscure sometimes…and there are reasons…and these seasons in my life have always brought a harvest of much fruit. But I know what it feels like to feel lonely for God. I know what that pain feels like when you look back to previous exalted seasons in your life when the path was clear and you felt the deep and reassuring presence of your God. The remembrances are deeply painful…because you can feel every bruise and break from your fall from that season to the current pit.
I remember when God called me away from my position at the church as a youth worker. God called me out to the frontier…and away from the security of the people I knew and loved. I loved my job at the church…and I loved my co-workers and the community that existed in that place. It was like a death to me…it was incredibly painful to leave. I remember my last day in my office…it was a Friday…a day when most of the staff had off…and it was just me left in the building. I walked out of the building that day, all alone…uncertain of what was awaiting me…and the pressure of that sense of loneliness was profound and deep…I could barely breathe. I wept the whole way home…I am not sure to this day how I got home safely! Sheesh! Talk about distracted driving….Driving while under the influence of grief! In the weeks that followed, I realized what you lose when you walk away from a position of influence and where you are known…I learned the hard way about the gift of obscurity! I went from one week having my phone ring and my email fill every day with my own sense of importance…to being quiet, and forgotten…I was not important any more. Sounds silly…but I realized how much of my self-worth I had tied up with the role I played…not in my inherent worth as a human and as a child of God. The pain of the realization of my own insignificance was so deep and breath taking…but I thank God every day He gave me the gift of obscurity.
I wonder if Job would look back in later years and thank God for that gift too. It is a gift to be recalibrated to your place in light of God…that grace of humility is so deeply restorative…once you learn to lean into the pain and surrender your ego and agenda.
All that to say…Job is wistfully considering and remember the heights from whence he fell and I am sure his wistful bitter sweet memories tugged at heart strings…it is hard not to feel compassion for such a man.
Section #5: I rest my case!
Job’s final plea is a demand more than a plea. He asks to speak directly to His accuser. He demands that someone show him where he has erred. He demands that the evidence of his failure and guilt be shown to him.
He proclaims that he will not stop pleading his innocence until someone shows him how he deserves this pain.
There is something very noble and inspiring about a man who will elegantly and emphatically stand by his integrity until the very end.
Job is done talking. There is nothing more he can say. Until the last breath of speech, he maintains his innocence before God.
He rests his case and with that…I believe shows an incredible faith in the goodness of God despite all appearances of the opposite. I believe he stops talking because at the end of the day, I believe Job knew in his core that God is good…and He would be Job’s Redeemer. Now all that was left was waiting for the Judge and Deliverer to make His decisions and final moves.
Commentator’s Evaluation:
So….I find that I am at the end of Job’s active engagement in this amazing Book. What do I think about Job? I think I have a new friend…that’s what I think. I think we should all be grateful to Job…that all Believers should be thankful for this man’s grotesque but genuine journey of faith.
I have learned so much from Job. I have learned what a challenged, nuanced and complex friendship with God looks like…and it isn’t neat and tidy….it is grotesque and lovely all at the same time. I have learned that neat and tidy are not hallmarks of faith…messy, complex and complicated are necessary by products of faith in a broken world.
I have learned that it is okay to engage God…I have learned how to be bold…I have learned that boldness with God is dependent on integrity and purity of life and heart. I have learned that even when everything and everyone is destroyed and taken from you…you can still breathe and have your being….you can still fight your cause and you can still retain your integrity…you can still stand. And in this upcoming season for me…that is important for me to know. And I am deeply grateful that God loved me enough to call me on this journey months ago…to prepare me for the adventure of this season.
Job, my Friend…can’t wait to meet you!!